im so super happy these days(:
i think im convinced now,
that i am entirely focused on australia!(:

im studying really quite hard now,
ss was just slightly less than a breeze,
i think i ll either pass fine or just fail.
english was obviously great.
but im super scared for hcl i think im going to fail/:

but im still very happy(:
ilovebeingalive,almostalwaysnow.

i cant wait for oneyearmore!

then i ll be over somewhere else,
doing the things i really really want to do,
with huei!

superconvivial!<3

ilovehuei alotalot.



Lately I'm alright
And lately I'm not scared
I've figured out
That what you do to me feels like
I'm floating on air
I don't need to know right now
All I know is I believe
In the very thing that got us here
And now I can't leave

Say anything, but say what you mean'cause
I'm caught in suspension

Now,I'm wanting this for sure
And I'll beg for nothing more
I'll plan all day and drive all night
You'll love what's in store
I can't seem to stop this now
Even if it's not so clear
And I'll take what I can get
If you want me here
Say anything, but say what you mean.
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same
We are gaining speed
I can barely breathe
'cause I'm caught in suspension

It's enough for me to get excited
It's enough for me to feel...woah

Say anything, but say what you mean
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same

<3
hello
im moving to
http://triflestotriggers.blogspot.com/

yep

but i ll still use this blog sometimes too
although i havent been updating a frikkin single thing
yep

lotsahearts,
jean
i havent updated this thing for some shit long time
im tired
just
tired
had really morbid dreams
i dont know
im really confused
im not depressed im not angry
im confused
i dont want to go to school and face this
its so tiring
i ve got everyone with me
but
im tired of always being the one
putting in all that effort to keep us going
im tired you know
what am i supposed to do then
let go?
how

Your EQ is 140

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

You Are 50% Borderline

You have some symptoms of borderline personality disorder. If you feel like you're more than a little dramatic, you may want to investigate further.

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life. You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

Your Birthdate: August 15

You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things. You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle. Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home. You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak. Your strength: Your intense optimism Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents Your power color: Jade Your power symbol: Flower Your power month: June

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious. You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep. Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

Your Life Path Number is 8

Your purpose in life is to help others succeed You are both a natural leader and a natural success. You are also a great judge of character. You have a head for business and finance. You know how to make money. A great visionary, you can see gold where other people see nothing. In love, you are very generous - with gifts, time, and guidance. You love to inspire people, but it can be frustrating when they don't understand your vision. Great success comes easily for you. But so does great failure, as you are very reckless. You are confident, and sometimes this confidence borders on arrogance.

You Are 71% Grown Up, 29% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature. Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

look down
i tell myself to look down
look down
look through all the masquerades and illusions
look through the lies and fabrications
and find myself looking at an abyss of black
an abyss
where all my dreams float away into nothingness
where im neglected
everything is lost
im forgotten
nobody cares
nobody remembers
im just a figment of the past
im afraid
afraid that will happen
that the rope im holding on so tightly to
will just break
break
and i fall into the dark
and i forget myself
and i fail
and i cry but no tears will come
and i smile but no happiness exists
and i cry but there is no sadness


im afraid;
im holding on so hard now
im tugging my heart out
im praying that
i wont fall apart again,


i dont know what to do
i dont know what im doing
tell me its okay
tell me im being stupid
paranoid
its not enough

tears again.

when will this stop

when will my rope be mended again

when will i be hauled back up

when will i wake up;


?
tell me,do i do anything or do i wait here.


what is happening,

why is everything in this area becoming so fucking shitty?


tears and tears and tears the whole week


me and romeo and juliet


cried cried cried

talked

shared tears

cried to sleep almost every single day

i hate it

why must you do this

im sick of it

i dont want to face it anymore

because its too unbearable

was sick this week

vomited fourtimes,had diarrhoea twice,
gastric too,bad headaches,food poisoning,fever and dizziness
all on thursday.


friday was terrible terrible gastric


and i think
poor romeo

noone believes her

just because its not a common fucking thing

they dont care

they give her stares and more stares

and they think shes lying

and all she can do is to bear it.

but even if those people are so ignorant,

im still there too,and our classmates are nice too

worry less.


and juliet

she and her *scotch tape problem

poor her

shes been crying like shit all week

i hope sp* freaking does something for her

dont cry anymore miss,

we re still there to support you.


and another addition

miss *ahmine ah

i love you

dont cry over that person anymore

and im sure the other bitch wont do anything to you anymore

because if she does i ll bite her for you and xy

and hopefully she ll be stricken
with the notion of
"once bitten twice shy"
(:

i ve been so depressed this week

everyone cried

i cried too

cried and cried and cried

dont know who the hell to trust anymore

dont know who is real or fake

i dont know




help us please.


rescue me.



















i love you more than you ll ever know

thankyou

iloveyoutopieces





letting go of all i ve held on to




i cant keep up
and i cant back down now in losing
so much time





its too little time



tell me why i have to leave now

i want to waste more time with you

i want to fight with you everyday

i want to say fuck and balls and funny shit with you everyday

i dont want to grow up









i want to stay here

forever

and ever

i d die for you to be happy

i mean it

i d die to spend a million years with you



i miss you so

nothing is right










tell me how to hold on.

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