Saturday, January 20, 2007
look down
i tell myself to look down
look down
look through all the masquerades and illusions
look through the lies and fabrications
and find myself looking at an abyss of black
an abyss
where all my dreams float away into nothingness
where im neglected
everything is lost
im forgotten
nobody cares
nobody remembers
im just a figment of the past
im afraid
afraid that will happen
that the rope im holding on so tightly to
will just break
break
and i fall into the dark
and i forget myself
and i fail
and i cry but no tears will come
and i smile but no happiness exists
and i cry but there is no sadness
im afraid;
im holding on so hard now
im tugging my heart out
im praying that
i wont fall apart again,
i dont know what to do
i dont know what im doing
tell me its okay
tell me im being stupid
paranoid
its not enough
tears again.
when will this stop
when will my rope be mended again
when will i be hauled back up
when will i wake up;
?
Saturday, January 13, 2007
tell me,do i do anything or do i wait here.what is happening,why is everything in this area becoming so fucking shitty?tears and tears and tears the whole weekme and romeo and julietcried cried criedtalkedshared tearscried to sleep almost every single dayi hate itwhy must you do thisim sick of iti dont want to face it anymorebecause its too unbearablewas sick this weekvomited fourtimes,had diarrhoea twice,gastric too,bad headaches,food poisoning,fever and dizziness all on thursday.friday was terrible terrible gastricand i thinkpoor romeo noone believes herjust because its not a common fucking thingthey dont carethey give her stares and more staresand they think shes lyingand all she can do is to bear it.but even if those people are so ignorant,im still there too,and our classmates are nice tooworry less.and julietshe and her *scotch tape problempoor hershes been crying like shit all weeki hope sp* freaking does something for herdont cry anymore miss,we re still there to support you.and another additionmiss *ahmine ahi love you dont cry over that person anymoreand im sure the other bitch wont do anything to you anymorebecause if she does i ll bite her for you and xyand hopefully she ll be strickenwith the notion of"once bitten twice shy"(:i ve been so depressed this weekeveryone criedi cried toocried and cried and crieddont know who the hell to trust anymoredont know who is real or fakei dont knowhelp us please.rescue me.